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Those "Mommy Moments"

Sat Jun 30, 2007 at 03:53:57 PM PDT

I expected motherhood to cause some profound changes in me.

For some reason, I thought the simple act of giving birth would transform me somehow into a woman that was deeper, wiser, and more complex than the girl who walked in to the hospital. I expected to radiate some magical "mother" vibe to all who saw me.

Surprise! I am still the same person as before, with the same likes and dislikes, the same stupid insecurities and goofy quirks. The only real change has been my capacity to love; it has literally grown to proportions I can't try to describe.

For the most part, I walk around feeling the same as I ever did, but there are unexpected moments when the fact that I'm a mommy hits me like a ton of bricks. I've had several of those this weekend, so I thought I would share a few and hope you'll add your own...

You know you're a Mommy when...

...your young co-worker is excitedly telling you about her plans to camp out for an iPhone, and your only reaction is, "Do you have sunscreen?"

...your potty-training daughter has a MAJOR accident, and you don't even blink while cleaning a seeming avalanche of poop off the floor, her legs, your shins, and the bathroom counter (how did it get THERE?)

...instead of singing Gwen Stefani songs in the shower, you find yourself humming a tune by the Backyardigans.

How about you ladies? When are you unexpectedly reminded of the fact that you're a mom?

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  • re: those mommy moments.... (0 / 0)

    thanks for a laugh, Erika!

    I've had a few myself....

    -when potty training my daughter a few years ago, i acutally asked a couple of my patients if they needed to pee before they left the practice....

    -I went out on a rare nite without kids to a karaoke nite and wondered why there weren't any Wiggles songs....

    -when walking with a friend, i automatically grabbed her hand as we started to walk across a street....

    -I learned that the heart is an infinitely expanding organ....

    have a great weekend-

  • Puke (0 / 0)

    I remember clearly one time when Seth was sick, and I was hugging him close to me, and I thought "this has got to be the only time that someone is puking, and I want to pull him even closer to me!"

    I had a similar iPhone moment, but more like "how can you afford the time to sit there?"  If I wanted to be in that line (I don't FWIW), I would have to many outstanding mom and household things hanging over my head to enjoy it.

  • Puke Part II (0 / 0)

    The puking is definitely a mommy/daddy moment thing.  When you would put your hands out and encourage someone to throw up into them, you know it's 100% unconditional love!

    • For me it that has (0 / 0)

      less to do with love and more to do with the fact that it's a lot easier to wash my hands then clean puke out of my carpets!  

    • Just in the gross-out area (0 / 0)

      How about DS pooping into your hands?  I was changing him on the coffee table (newborn, and we didn't have our changing table yet) and he suddenly started to poop and I just reached out for it-- like TeachPeace said, better my hands than the carpets! But as it happened, I thought, I never in a million years thought I'd be catching poop in my hands (while not on a game show being offered a million dollars!).

      I have yet to have my DS do what I did to my mom-- 7 years old, bad watermelon, projectile vomiting, go into Mom's room, lean over her sleep face and say, "Hey Mom, I don't feel so---" BLAH-- right into her face!  What a way to wake up!  No Mother's Day cards can ever make up for that one...

      "You see, in this world there is one awful thing, and that is that everyone has his reasons." Jean Renoir

      by Little Miss Patriot on Mon Jul 02, 2007 at 11:41:44 AM PDT

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  • Have you ever... (0 / 0)

    stood in an aisle, looking over a shelf of merchandise, rocking from side to side to keep your shopping cart in motion, and then realized the baby was at home and your cart was empty?

    FYI on the iPhone... it is way cool.  My husband picked one up yesterday, which is funny because he is so not "cutting edge tech."  He showed up 30 minutes before opening and was on his way home w/ his new toy about 90 minutes later, so it wasn't too painful. They are so cool that even though I have little use, and no need for one, I'd be seriously tempted if ATT wasn't the exclusive carrier (their coverage sucks in my area)...

  • I knew I was a mom (0 / 0)

    when I started flinging my right arm across the passenger seat -- no matter who was in it -- when I ran a yellow light or hit an unexpected dip in the road.

    • my Mom and I were just talking about that one (0 / 0)

      and how around age 13 I had to get her to stop (breasts! ow!).  In her case she said it was because my car seat was useless (1969) and would slide around.

      "You see, in this world there is one awful thing, and that is that everyone has his reasons." Jean Renoir

      by Little Miss Patriot on Mon Jul 02, 2007 at 11:43:42 AM PDT

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  • I hear things come flying out of my mouth (0 / 0)

    Such as:
    Counting to three when she's doing something bad.
    Singing "I love you a bushel and a peck" and old favoorite of my Gram's.
    "Do you have to poop?"

    But mostly it strikes me when I realize that she sees me as in charge, when most of the time I'm flying by the seat of my pants.  

    I also feel very much like a mommy when I'm buying organic foods, patronizing small family businesses, writing my senator, keeping up with politics, etc. etc.
    Nothing gets you involved with making the world a better place like having kids that have to live in it.

    I love them more than words could ever say.
    It's the best thing I've ever done.

  • One night in the middle of the night... (0 / 0)

    my young toddler woke up, and in a barely awake state starting calling, "Mama!  Mama!"  It suddenly hit me... I'M the mama!  Someone was crying out for my comfort during the night.

    I still spend lots of time wondering when I'm going to feel like one of the grown ups.  It doesn't help that I'm nearly a decade younger than most of the people with little kids around here since I started in my 20s rather than my 30s.  But I'm starting to think that I'll still be wondering the same thing when I'm an old lady.  

  • when i looked at the guys in leather (0 / 0)

    at the back of the plane as some random biker dudes and was careful not to let my son (2 at the time) wander back there.....only to find out later they were the rock band Twisted Sister!

  • I guess (0 / 0)

    it was when I was sitting in a meeting in church, and the man sitting next to me started leaning his chair back on two legs. I reached out and touched his arm before I realized it was not my place to tell him to put his chair down.

    Another time I've really felt like a mom -- when I don't care that I am missing a super fabulous party, because it's not a kid-friendly gathering and I'd rather be with my kids.

  • At the beach, yesterday (0 / 0)

    I was watching my DS playing and jumping in the waves, and wondering if there was any sweeter moment in the world!

  • Feeling protective (0 / 0)

    The times I have felt most like a mom are when DH is gone and DD and I are alone overnight in the house. I find myself running different emergency scenarios through my head -- how would we escape a fire? What if there was an intruder? Those times make me realize that I'M the one who is in charge and has to keep her safe. Also, when life's little cruelties sneak up -- like today, we were at the arboretum and she was running around inside a giant sculpture. She saw two little girls, probably 4 and 5, and immediately joined up with them to run around. The older girl kept tellling my DD (who is 3) to stop following them. My girl is very confident, and this didn't faze her at all. We tried getting her attention back to us, but she wanted to play with the kids. When the older girl said to stop following them for about the 5th time, I directed my daughter to a different area, and what do you know, the girl's followed her this time. At that point I said to them "if you don't want her to follow you, then let her be." Those moments always break my heart, but I love that she just goes about her way, like, oh well, I'll find someone else interesting.

    • worst case scenario (0 / 0)

      I always do that too, mostly when DH is out of town.  Also, when we're driving in the middle of nowhere I keep track of how far back the nearest house was in case one of us has to hike back to find help.

    • I have a snake phobia (0 / 0)

      and we just moved out to the country, and of course had a baby rattlesnake in the back yard.  I remembered my mom chopping up a rattlesnake in the driveway with a hoe when I was a kid (that sounds like she was making dinner! I mean, she was protecting me by killing the snake) and all of a sudden it hit me-- now I'M the one who's supposed to kill the snake!  

      Also, we are way out here but we are in a neighborhood being built, and I too have run scenarios about running down to the construction workers for help.  They don't speak much English, but I think if I came running up either holding my son who needed help or with Freddie Kreuger running after me, they would get it!  In fact, as they work farther and farther away from our house I find I really miss them.  I suppose that's not very feminist but it was nice to know there were men there.

      "You see, in this world there is one awful thing, and that is that everyone has his reasons." Jean Renoir

      by Little Miss Patriot on Mon Jul 02, 2007 at 11:52:29 AM PDT

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  • Hiding behind things and saying, "where's your (0 / 0)

    mommy???" I do this all of the time in public so that ds will follow me instead of meandering around. Or just for fun. Sometimes I do this pretend run so he thinks I am running away. We can get to our destination fairly quickly while he's thinking it's a fun game. (I am sometimes still a tiny bit smarter than he is, but at 13 months, those days are numbered, I can feel it :).

    I call most kids "sweetie" or "sweatheart" now, even my oldest friend's son, who could never be mistaken for sweet, if you know what I mean.

    And a biggee - we just ordered an SUV! ARGH! I say ordered because we're getting a hybrid Escape and they are hard to get around here. I feel really weird about it. But my back can no longer abide bending forward and low to get him in his car seat, and my knees and mood can't abide kneeling in the parking lot to do the clips, in order to minimize the forward bend. Given how nuts that is, an SUV it is. At least it's a hybrid, uses no gas at all at less than 25 mph, and is pretty small in the scheme of things. But still ..... argh.

    But the biggest of all is how I consciously try to do my best in my relationships, my self-care, and how I live in general because ds will live the same way someday.

    RachelD

  • Dh and I (0 / 0)

    sometimes just do simple stuff like watch her play by herself or pick her up after she's fallen asleep on the couch and say to each other: yup, we are her parents.

    But i haven't had the moment where I KNOW that I'm mommy yet. I think it'll come more when she calls me momma.

  • asdf (0 / 0)

    When I accidentally tell my boss bye-BYE at the end of the day in that goofy kidvoice...

    if you wobba cypress trees then I will wobba you

    by thais on Mon Jul 02, 2007 at 07:48:35 AM PDT

  • When I spot (0 / 0)

    a "bat in the cave" on a friend or colleague, and I have to literally STOP MYSELF, before sticking my finger up their nose and digging it out!!

    • or licking your thumb (0 / 0)

      and wiping an adult's cheek because you see some "shmutz"-- I did that to my "MIL" before I could stop myself!

      "You see, in this world there is one awful thing, and that is that everyone has his reasons." Jean Renoir

      by Little Miss Patriot on Mon Jul 02, 2007 at 11:54:58 AM PDT

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    • It took me until I had kids to understand (0 / 0)

      The phrase "Snot-Nosed Brat!" What is it with kids and runny noses? Good gravy! I have to stop myself wiping other kids' noses. Adults, luckily, I have managed to refrain! Hee hee!

      "the "well-informed citizenry" envisioned by our framers has degenerated into a "well-amused audience." Tad Daley, Alternet - interview w/ Al Gore 05/22/07

      by cgiselle12 on Mon Jul 02, 2007 at 12:24:09 PM PDT

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  • Sleep habits (0 / 0)

    My nonna used to put me to sleep by gently shaking the mattress, and I've done it for my boys since they were little. But now, when I'm in bed with DH and the boys are sleeping in their beds, I still do it. Start bouncing my foot to shake us to sleep.

    I tell everyone at work that I'm going to the potty. Can't help myself.

    In having had to curb the curse words in front of my boys, I find myself saying all sorts of wacky stuff. It changes periodically. Currently, it's "Sugar Booger" - a la Hugh Neutron. I say Sugar Booger everywhere now - I have trouble cursing at all.

    "the "well-informed citizenry" envisioned by our framers has degenerated into a "well-amused audience." Tad Daley, Alternet - interview w/ Al Gore 05/22/07

    by cgiselle12 on Mon Jul 02, 2007 at 12:22:29 PM PDT

  • There Was The Time I Was (0 / 0)

    ...driving in the car, listening to "The Secret Garden" and Archibald started singing about being bereft without his dead wife, and how on this earth could he ever go on without her?  All very romantically angsty, and it's not like I hadn't heard it a zillion times before, but this time I found myself shouting at the radio: "You're a FATHER, you selfish son-of-a-bitch, that's why you go on- your cild is sick and he needs you so SUCK IT UP and get back there and do your job!"  Granted, Timothy was still in the NICU at the time- tomorrow marks one month out of the hospital, woohoo!- so I was not at my most emotionally stable, but that almost instinctive impatience with people abrogating their parenting responsibility has remained.  

    Oh yeah, and I've done the poo-catching thing, too. :)

    • congratulations (0 / 0)

      on your one month anniversary.  Does it feel real yet?  How long was he in the NICU?

      • Thanks :) (0 / 0)

        It's real and not-real, I guess.  I've gotten used to doing everything around what he'll want to/be able to handle.  And I think it helps that I would be off for summer break anyway, so I'm not having work withdrawl on top of everything.  But every once and a while the "holy crap I'm a PARENT" feeling will hit me upside the head.  The other night my husband said something like "let's take you over to mommy" and it was so weird to realize that "mommy" is me! :)

        Timothy was in the NICU for three weeks; he was a month premature and had some pretty serious lung problems.  When I get three seconds to myself I mean to write a diary about it- it was a strange experience all around (not to mention the best argument against HSAs as the insurance panacea that I've personally run across).

        • Congratulations. (0 / 0)

          Almost 23 years ago, my twins spent 2 weeks in the NICU.  They were born at 34 weeks.  No breathing problems, but a bit of a problem getting them to digest food.  "Strange experience" certainly sums it up...I know the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life was to walk out of the hospital empty handed.   So strange to come home to a nursery all prepared and just wait...still don't know which day was better...the day we brought home baby #1 or four days later when baby #2 came home.  Certainly all kinds of conflicting emotions, to say the least.

          • our downstairs neighbor (0 / 0)

            when we lived in London was a NICU nurse. She is a wonderful person, and I couldn't think of a better person to do that kind of work - she radiates calm and caring. It can't be easy work at all. It's funny, though - when we introduced Jess around the apartment block (there were only six in the building and we were close to everyone), her first comment was, "I can't believe how big she is." Now Jess was just bang-on normal, but considering that Pam only saw the preemies, Jess born at 41 weeks looked like a giant to her!

            • Hee hee... (0 / 0)

              Timothy was 8 lbs 3 oz, even though he was a month early.  (His cousin was over 10 pounds.  We just build 'em big in my family.)  He looked huge compared to the other preemies.  Once he was extubated and just needed to learn to eat, nurses wold pop their heads into his room to see him  when he was upset, commenting, "That's a big baby cry!" :)

    • congratulations (0 / 0)

      on having your son home from hospital. I love the name Timothy, BTW.

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