Growing up my parents weren't always practical about money so I tend to worry about it unnecessarily.  My work pays for our absolutely fantastic childcare providers and it gives me something to think about other than our little guy's cardiac stuff.

As for being amazing, I'll take the compliment :-)  I do feel out of balance though.  Our kids look fantastic but I look like I've gone through the wringer -- I've lost weight and I'm not getting enough sun.  I'm really looking forward to nice weather so we can pop outside more easily.

You're so right about "help".  While I adore them, my in-laws often feel that way to me.  I've learned to just take little guy downstairs and leave the older kids to play with our helpers.  They still find me but not so quickly ;-)

It's hard because I don't really think it helps me here at all.  Right now I just need to keep on taking him to our excellent cardiologist.  When we were in the hospital my 'one step ahead' way of looking at things definitely helped get quicker diagnoses, which was good.

The recovery with his vision, as evidenced by gaze preference and tracking, is really amazing.  It speaks to how plastic infant brains are!